You should've heard me sobbing
outside your home that night
got in the bed and stayed there
for days i just layed there
having been perimently changed
but we won't get into that now
let's take it from the start
you should've seen me smiling
it's like the world was mine
she used to call me "baby"
softly, sometimes
but if i dwell on those days tonight
i feel like my life is over
and that's not good
so let's move on
to the part where i began to sense
her distance
i've barely can hold on tighter
and that makes it worse cause how am i supposed to take it when she says
"it's just something i'm going through, it's got nothing to do with you"
i had a special evening all planned out
desperately determined to re-ignite
some spark between us
she had to feel something for me
a love as strong as ours doesn't just go away
can't just turn it off
unless she was lieing all those times
i don't think so, i really don't think so
the way she used to look at me made me a thousand feet high
the meaning of the word cool
not the same geek who fumbled with his words that night
the ugliest night
i said some pretty awkward things
i got the feel she felt sorry for me
i should've seen it was hopeless and left it alone but i had to go on embarrasing myself
i miss what we had i need you so badly
i must've sounded pretty pathetic i know
and that's why i don't blame her for what she said
"listen to your emily we don't know eachother that well but your so easy to talk to
i feel i can tell you almost anything
i hope i haven't but you off
i have the tendancy to do that
why don't i just be quiet."